It’s been a long time since I’ve written here at Stay-At-Home Daughter. I kind of dropped out of the blogging world for a while there without an explanation. I’m sorry for the lack of communication, but in all honesty I just needed a break to figure things out.
2012 was a kind of hell, going through the highs and lows of a rocky engagement, ending it and finally realizing that it had been an abusive relationship. In 2013, I was dealing with the aftermath of the events which had damaged me so deeply that I almost did not recover. I thank the Lord for a supportive family who loved and prayed for me. I am forever grateful.
There was a long, hard healing period as I rode out the waves of depression, PTSD and crippling fear. I still attempted to blog for a while… writing is a healing thing but I didn’t know how to tell the world what I had gone through. I didn’t realize till later how big of a mistake it was to keep quiet about my pain.
After much of the pain had finally come to subside, I woke up one morning and looked in the mirror. I realized that the girl in the reflection wasn’t a girl anymore but a full grown woman and I had no idea who she was.
And so the journey began… the soul searching, tear inducing journey. I found myself often with music turned up too loud in an attempt to block out the nagging questions in my mind for just a few minutes of peace. I labored in silent struggles of prayer, “God, show me the truth of who You are and who I am supposed to be right now because I just don’t know.”
I started asking questions, questions I was afraid to hear the answers to. I dove deep into theology. Sometimes I thought I might drown and had to come up for air.
Truth. I wanted truth and I had to consider the possibility that I had been wrong about a few things.
Through my journey on this truth expedition I have become a different person, embracing many changes.
A few of these changes would be some defining differences in my theology, practice and passions. One of my most happy changes is that I am now married to the love of my life, Will Easter. This man is so gentle and empowering. He’s the best thing that ever happened to me.
I’ve taken a lot of steps in life to start fresh and new and one of those steps is that I will be blogging again but in a new place www.ashleyeaster.com. This new blog is going to have a completely different feel from before but I hope you will stick around long enough to see what it’s all about.
I also want you to know that the Knit Together In Love scarf project will continue. My husband and I are playing around with some ways we can improve it and make it more impactful. Thank you so very much to everyone who contributed this year. Your handmade creations were beautiful and touching! The scarves will be going to China and Nepal and I have asked the missionaries for pictures after they deliver them.
Thank you for your patients with me. I ask for grace in these changes and forgiveness if I steered you wrong in the past. Please know that was never, ever my intention.
I honestly think some amazing things are about to happen and I hope you will come along for the ride. Please visit my new website and if you feel so inclined: follow, like or subscribe.
Much love to you,
Ashley Schnarr Easter